| Location | Coventry |
| Age | 26 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 14/01/1981 |
| Date of Death | 28/08/2007 |
| Visitors | 14,243 since 24/12/2007 |
| Creator |
Robert Ayres
Committed suicide and left us on August 28th 2007, aged 26.
He was a loving Son, Brother, Partner to Kerri, and an amazing father to Shannon, Angel and Lewis.
We'll never know what went through his mind in the past few moments of his life but we will always
wonder. Your missed so much Rob, by so many people, I just don't think you realise how many lives
you touched.
"Rob, we often sit and think of you and wonder why you died, We never got to say goodbye before you
closed your eyes.
God took you when we were not there, the reasonw e shall never know.
He knew we thought the world of you and would never let you go" - Debbie Fawcett
Loving you is easy - We do it everyday
Missing you is harder - It never goes away
You've now got your beloved Kerri up there with you now, and I just hope your looking after her as
well as you did down here. We miss her so much.
Http://kerri-atkins.gonetoosoon.org
Sleep Well xxxxxx
XXX THANKYOU XXX
JUST WANTED TO SAY THANKYOU TO MY GRANDAD FOR PUTTING UP THE PHOTOS OF MY ROB ..AS EVERYONE CAN SEE WE WERE SO SO HAPPY AND THIS IS WHY I STILL CANT UNDERSTAND WHY MY BABY HAS GONE.
EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF EVERY SINGLE DAY I AM STILL ASKING MYSELF WHY HAS HE DONE SUMTHING SO BLOODY STUPID !!!
I KNOW THAT ROB IS WATCHING OVER ME AND HIS CHILDREN AND THAT HE HAS NEVER LEFT MY SIDE .BELIVE IT OR NOT BUT HE STILL MESSES AROUND THE SAME NOW AS HE DID IN LIFE .HE DOE'S MOVE THINGS IN MY HOUSE AND HE HAS A GREAT TRICK HE DOE'S WITH THE LAMP IN MY LOUNGE LOL
IT DOE'S ANNOY ME WHICH HE KNOWS THATS WHY HE KEEPS DOING IT LOL
SO WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT THE PHYSICAL ROB MAY HAVE GONE BUT HIS SPIRIT AND PERSONALITY IS SO MUCH ALIVE .MY SON MANY WEEKS AGO SEEN A MAN AT THE TOP LANDING OUTSIDE HIS BEDROOM BY THE WINDOW SO I KNOW HE IS WATCHING OVER OUR LITTLE BOY .EVEN THOW HE SCARED THE LIFE OUT OF HIM BUT IT STILL GIVE'S ME COMFORT KNOWING HE WILL LET NO HARM COME TO OUR LEWIS .
IF ONLY HE WOULD SHOW HIMSELF TO ME THOW BUT I KNOW WHY AND THATS BECAUSE I ASK CONSTNATLY FOR HIM TOO.
ANYWAY I REALLY HOPE EVERYONE!!! MAY IT B FREINDS FAMILY OR PASSER'S BY TOO LOOK AT THE PICTURES OF ROB AND NOT SEE A MAN WITH MANY MANY PROBLEMS AND ISSUES BUT TO SEE THE FANTASTIC YOUNG GENTLEMAN THE NUMBER 1 FARTHER BROTHER UNCLE AND SON .AND ALSO THE MAN WHO I SO DEARLY LOVED WITH EVERY INCH OF MY HEART .I COULD NEVER ASK FOR A BETTER PARTNER AS THERE IS NOT ONE ON THIS EARTH .
GOD BLESS YOU ROB AND REST PEACEFULLY MY BABY .
LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUT MISSING YOU EVEN MORE.
XXX KERRI XXX
MY BIG BRO Burtie
Kerry, all i can say is how dare i? well i thought this site was to remember Rob i didnt realise only certain people could go on it. I know what happened that nite or i no wat u sed happened that nite, no one ever blamed you for what rob did, cuz he never did make the rite choices. At the end of the day you were with him for 3 years, he was my bro for 26.What happened in the past happened,and yea we asked ourselfs wat if? Just like everyone that was in his life even from before you. But it aint gunna bring him back. Theres a lot about Rob we both didnt no, theres no point in dwelling in the past he's gone but will never forget him. Oh and by the way i have no guilty feeling for anything, Rob made his own choices in life.
Well bro just wanna say that u never liked peace. And now your gne u still dnt appreciate it uve always been a shit bag and always will. love u. g shaz and boyz.xxxxx
ROB ALWAYS LOVED ALWAYS MISSED
TO G AND ANYONE ELSE WHO MAY COME HERE ,
THIS SITE IS OPEN TO EVERYONE WHO KNEW ROB AND EVEN TO PEOPLE WHO NEVER HAD THE PLESURE OF KNOWING SUCH A WONDERFULL MAN .
I KNOW ME AND ROB WER NOT TOGEATHER ALL OUR LIVES BUT WE WAS GOING TO B FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES .
MY HEART REALLY DOE'S GO OUT TO ALL HIS FAMILY EVEN IF HARSH WORDS HAVE BEEN SAID .
WE ALL LOST ROB AND I KNOW HE SITS NOW WATCHING ALL OF THIS AND PROBERLY HAVING A GIGGLE TO HIMSELF WHILE SIPPING ON HIS CARLING AS HE ALWAYS LOVED ENTERTAINMENT .CUZ THAT WAS ROB IF SOMTHING WAS HAPPENING OUTSIDE OUR HOMES HE WOULD B FIRST TWITCHING AT THE CURTAINS .
ROB REALLY DID LOVE HIS BRO SO MUCH BUT THINGS DID GO ONE BETWEEN THEM BUT ALL WAS FORGOTTEN IN ROBS EYES
HE DID NOT GO TO HIS GRAVE HATEING OR JUDGING ANYONE
WELL NO-ONE THAT I KNOW ABOUT ANYWAY.
ROB ALWAYS FORGAVE PEOPLE ESECIALLY ME AS I DID DO THINGS WRONG TO MY PARTNER SAME AS HE DID TO ME ,BUT ITS JUST SILLY NORMAL RELATIONSHIP STUFF WHICH WE GOT OVER.
G ROB LOVED U .HE WAS ASKING YOU TO B BEST MAN AT OUR WEDDING IN JULY/AUG THIS YEAR ALL HARD FEELING WAS PUT ASIDE FROM BOTH OF US.HE SO WANTED YOU TO BE THERE EVEN THOW HE WAS NOT AT YOUR'S . I KNEW HOW MUCH HE LOVED U G AND I NO HE WOULD OF NEVER WANTED ANOTHER MAN AT HIS SIDE ON OUR DAY.U WAS HIS ONLY BROTHER AND THE PAIR OF YOU HAVE SHARED MANY MEMORIES.
anyway JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT .
AND TOO MY ROB .I BET YOUR LOVING ALL OF THIS HAHA BUT DONT WORRY AS U WONT B SEEING NO MORE HARSH WORDS OR ILL FEELING AS THERE REALLY IS NO POINT . U CHOOSE TO TRY AND TAKE UR LIFE IT WAS U THAT NIGHT RUNNING OUT THE BACK IT WAS YOU THAT DRANK YOUR DRINK AND IT WAS YOU WHO HAVE LEFT US ALL BEHIND .BUT ITS US WHO ARE BREAKING OUR HEARTS AS WE LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH .BUT ITS ALL DONE NOW BABY AND WHAT EVER DEMONS YOU HAD THERE ARE NOW ALL GONE .I AM GLAD I KNOWN U FOR NEARLY 4 YEARS I AM GLAD WE SHARED ALL OUR HAPPYIST TIMES TOGEATHER .
EVEN THOW UR GONE UR MEMORY WILL LIVE ON.
SLEEP TIGHT BABY AS UR ALWAYS IN OUR THOUGHTS
LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER .
UR OLD FRUIT KERRI AND LEWIS .XOXOOXOX
CONTACT XX
TO FREINDS ETC HERE IS MY CONTACT ADDY IF YOU WISH TO MESSAGE ME BABYKERRI@HOTMAIL.CO.UK .X
xxx sorry xxx
just wanted to apologise 2 all that come to this site and to my lost love one rob .
my last tribute i really did loose it for many many reason. when u are blamed for the death of the person who ur world and life revolves around it kinda messes with ur head .
people dont seem to realise that when i lost rob my little boy and my family nearly lost me due to 4 suicide attempts myself .
u do not know how much pain and hurt and that life crushing feeling u get when u are told other the fone that the man ur wer spending the rest of ur life with was found dead that morning out the back of your house as house we wer buying and had only lived her 3 weeks .
when i was told my 7 yr old little boy was behind me and i didnt even hear him screaming and my screams drowned out everythink .
robs family do not know many many things because they do not ask .
please stop being angry with me plzzzzz as loosing my rob was hard enough and seeing my son so angry and punching himself because he has lost the best dad in the world .
rob has gone and is never coming bk no matter how many tears we shed and if anything we should all stick togeather to keep his memory alive . rob loved us all and even thow he was with me and we were never gonna split up does not mean he loved u any less as he did not .
and the family balming me is not goin to help . u are quick enuff to blame me but would you face my son in years time when he is at ur door calling u a murderer beacuse mummy took her life because of what u have done to her.
see your actions do not just affect me but they affect many people around me including my 8 yr old son who see's mummy cry enuff . and what do u think rob would say as you know he would neva off taken ur side no matter how much he loved u he always stood by his family .
1 st off all he wud bang our heads togeather and tell us to fix up ... but no matter how much mud u through at me u will never break the bond between me and ur brother and son . and no matter what i will never stop loving him . i will always go to his grave and i will always fight for his right
anyway to wanted to say sorry . hope you can see from my point of veiw once u have read this .... try being mature cuz if i can then im sure you can x
For Lewis........... XXX
Daddy I love you, daddy I care. Please look after me now so I dont despair. My love for you is so deep, I will never ever forget u. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx
Rob watching over your precious children & family as they start this new journey into the New Year with out you. Sprinkle your angel dust & send your love to them all. Protect them forever & make sure no harm comes to any of them.
In my thoughts XXX Lisa XXX
why ?
why why why why why still asking the same question over and over again 24/7
babe even thow u did what u did that night . u know i would have forgiven u as i no it was not u doing it as . when u loose it on drink it really is not u .that why i got bk togeather after the ohter times as i knew u need help .not just kisses n cuddles n love from me but proffesional help .
we all no why you thought of suicide we all no what was going through ur head and u see i wrote (thought) of suicide because u didnt actually mean it to go as far as u did . as u wer terrified of death and so was i thats why i wrapped u in cotton wool . if u had not had been so drunk and slyly drinking shots at the bar then u wud not have dun wat u did to me and u wud most definaltly not have been dead.
u fell unconcious and then fate took over . so it was drink that killed my baby my life my soul mate . not u and not me .. just that demon called alcahol ..i just really really wish we had not have moved here as i know u would still b here now and foreva . this house has been a curse since day one .thats why me and lewis are moving asap .just waiting to hear now .and to b honest ill feel light tourching the place .. well not like there is much left since lewis has all ready destroyed the upstairs by fire .
but as the rest it needs to b demolished as this house has a seriously bad curse on it as since we moved in everytink gone wrong 1st the dishwasher haha the once u coverd the kitchen in trying to fix it .and ur diagnosis was (pardon french) 'babe its fucked ' lol which i already knew haha and that still makes me laugh as it took u atleast 2 hours to come up with that hehe
and then the car broke .well me mums car
then we had u leave us on the 27th of aug not the 28th as rob passed b4 12am
then i had the car crash on the way home from work .which was bad enuff (sorry mum it was ur car hehe)
then to top it all off our son sets fire to my bedroom not only detsoring most of our possesions but the phots of us and your stuff aswell and what really killed me was seeing the fire men through the burning teddy bears you had bought and won me on holiday they hurt the most .
the day after i found i had been suffering with carbin monoxcide poisoning for 4 weeks from the fire in lounge
so had all gas shut off to the house since oct 26th and still this day its not back on .for reason .
so u see baby if we had stayed in our old house u would still b here .as its all my fault as i pushed to get our horse which was fine untill this house came up down the road from the stable so me and u decided to go for it and within 4 days we had the keys we even said it was fate as the landlord said we cud by it in 6 months and that we were doin . we thought we were goin to b so happy we had so so so many plans for it . until the curse took over .
but anyway its done now . just we getting out of here b4 the next tragedy happens ..
anyway goin to sleep now as its silly oclock in the morn
sleep tight babycakes missing and loving you so so much xoxooxox
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TO G ROBS SO CALLED BRO HOW DARE YOU COME ONTO MY MAN SITE AND MAKE OUT U ALWAYS BIN THERE FOR HIM ..FOR STARTERS U AINT SPOKE TO HIM FOR 3 YRS U HAD HIS FUNERAL IN THE CHURCH WE WER GETTIN MARRIED IN THIS YEAR ,U DIDNT INVITE HIM TO UR WEDDING OR UR KIDS CHRISTENING .AND U LOT TRY AND BLAME ME .. U REALLY NEED TO GET UR HEAD OUT UR ARSE AND START LOOKING AT ROBS PAST YEH AS ME N LEW WER HIS FUTURE AND U AND UR FAMILY CANT HANDLE THAT ..ROB HAS TOLD ME ABOUT EVERYTINK THAT WENT ON B4 ME AND HIM EVEN GOT TOGEATHER .SO TAKE ALONG HARD LOOK AT URSELF AND THE TOO FACED PEOPLE AROUND U AND THEN SAY TO URSELF ..WHO REALLY IS TO BLAME .DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT CUMMIN ON THIS SITE AND SLAGGING ME OFF AS THAT IS SO DISREPECTFUL TO MY ROB .U RUINED HIS FUNERAL BECAUSE U AND SHAZ CUDNT KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT FOR ONE DAY .. FEELING GUILTY WER WE AY GRAY .U LOT MUCKED IT UP FOR YOURSELF SO GROW UP AND GET ON WITH IT AS U HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT FOR THE REST OF UR LIVES .DONT YOU THINK ME AND MY SON HAVE BEEN THROUGH ENUFF WE LOST OUR WHOLE LIFE IN ONE NITE AND THEN WEEKS LATER WE HAD A FIRE WHICH U BLOODY KNEW ABOUT AND U STILL COME TO OUR HOUSE AND RUN UR MOUTH UP .. IF YOU HAD BEEN THERE FOR 3 YRS AND NOT SHUNNED YOUR BRO OFF THEN I CUD UNDERSTAND .BUT U WASNT SO BASICALLY KEEP YA NOSE OUT OF MY LIFE AND MY LITTLE BOYS
My deepest sorrow
To all robert left behind i never knew robert but i am sure he was a great man and iam just paying my sorrow from the bottom of my heart xxx
Missing you...
Strange isn't it, I created this site, I put it all together and got it going, but I haven't been able to post yet.
Thankyou to everyones kind words. Its heart breaking reading all this, especially kerrys entries. Alot of people dont understand how much Rob meant to our whole family and how much we all miss him so much. He was a massive part of us and now he's gone there is a big BIG gap.
Rob - You were such an amazing person. You touched everyones lives and even people who hardly knew you, could see what you had to offer. You were an amazing father to lewis, and you and kerri were perfect together.
Those two are just not the same without you.
I wish, you had stopped to think, for 5 mins. Mum had seen you like that before and managed to bring you round and make you see sense, if only, hey?
I wish's and if only's dont work tho. You were obviously troubled, and not just from a few years as some people are led to believe... but from a whole string of events.
You left behind what could have been an amazing future. No matter what was wrong, or what youd done, you know me and the whole family always stood behind you.
Christmas wasn't the same without you. No-one to play all the games lewis had got, no one to sit with me and take the mickey out of the rest of the family. And no one who would drink a pint full of peas! haha.
I hope you are at peace now, and watching over us all to see we are safe and well.
R.I.P. Rob. You are missed, so much
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