miss u

rob every 1 misses u we all give ya our love my mum abbie 2 twins are missin ya just wish u was ere.. da whole fam have had wkd laughs wiv u like on holiday.. readin what every 1 else put makes me cry u were like me cuzin cant believe it was 2 soon luv kerrie tina abbie jamie rikki xxx

my son took his own life last year ...I understand some of the terrible pain and loss you may be feeling

Reflection

Another day for you to wonder, another day for you to mourn
It wasn't my intention to go before the coming dawn
My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head
It wasn't my intention to go without words said.

My frame of mind seemed normal, or so I heard them say
It wasn't my intention not to see another day
I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain
It wasn't my intention to never see you again.

Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure
It wasn't my intention to suddenly close life's door
If only I could give you reasons and brush the tears away
It wasn't my intention to leave you and not stay.

I did not mean for you to grieve, now left alone to cry
It wasn't my intention to leave you, forever asking why
As the burdens of life's worries slowly ebb from my heart
it wasn't my intention to tear your soul apart
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there is a group that offers support for all those that lost loved ones in this way...its link is on GTS on the links please feel free to join us it may help

Sheila Mum to Ian and wife of Trev (passing by)
December 27, 2007

thoughts will not go away !!

hi babe just sittin here now on boxing day with our son lewis looking at fotos of us !! i still cant belive you are gone and that u are never coming back .as thow my 1st fears came true ..no matter what i cannot get you from my mind and no matter how much drink i plow down my neck you are still there ....i cannot understand why u left us and how you could have been so bloody stupid .anything that was wrong between us could and would have been sorted .the nite u left was bad but we have been through worse u only had to have talked to me as that is why i am here ..togeather forvea we always said but u broke ur promise and for that i am soooo angry with u .you knew you could have talked to me once you had calmed down but u didnt .i told u to stop drinking as it turned u into a person that u were not ..rob you were such a great bloke and you had so much love to give you worshiped me and our son and your daughters u treasured your sister and ur neices and nephews .u loved life and for that is why i fell sooo deeply in love with you ..without you here are hearts and lives are empty the house is so cold and no-longer full of love .the love and happyness only u brought here ..i really hope you can see this as i am typing it now ..but it does not matter if you cant as u no how much i loved you and that life will never b the same untill i can see and hold you again ....nite baby i will never forget ..please watch over me and lewis and your little princesses shannon and angel ....love you so much and miss u more than words can say ........love you boo !!!!!

thoughts will not go away !!

hi babe just sittin here now on boxing day with our son lewis looking at fotos of us !! i still cant belive you are gone and that u are never coming back .as thow my 1st fears came true ..no matter what i cannot get you from my mind and no matter how much drink i plow down my neck you are still there ....i cannot understand why u left us and how you could have been so bloody stupid .anything that was wrong between us could and would have been sorted .that nite u left was bad but we have been through worse u only had to have talked to me as that is why i am here ..togeather forvea we always said but u broke ur promise and for that i am soooo angry with u .you knew you could have talked to me once you had calmed down but u didnt .i told u to stop drinking as it turned u into a person that u were not ..rob you were such a great bloke and you had so much love to give you worshiped me and our son and your daughters u treasured your sister and ur neices and nephews .u loved life and for that is why i fell sooo deeply in love with you ..without you here are hearts and lives are empty the house is so cold and no-longer full of love .the love and happyness only u brought here ..i really hope you can see this as i am typing it now ..but it does not matter if you cant as u no how much i loved you and that life will never b the same untill i can see and hold you again ....nite baby i will never forget ..please watch over me and lewis and your little princesses shannon and angel ....love you so much and miss u more than words can say ........love you boo !!!!!

Rob,
you were much loved and are very much missed by everyone that knew you. I didn't get the chance to know you long enough. I laugh when I remember the night you ran off down the road with my Patrick, singing and laughing all the way to the pub lol.
Kerri's got a good family and friends but she's not the same without you.
xx

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I have just sat and read what my mum and kerri have wrote....it put a tear in my eye.......

if onli
if onli
if onli's arnt going to bring him bak but it is lovley to see what people truely think of rob...

we all no he wernt ment to do it.....mistakes happen...
ROB...U R A Idiot!!!!

But we love you the same no matter what happens you are always in or hearts and a part of our family..


I hope you no what pain you have caused...when i lost my gdad i was not oldenought to realise what was going on.....i never new what the feeling off loss was.....i never ew that someone leaving could cause so much pain......its a realli wierd feelin,,,,a lonly feeling...even tho i didnt live with you or spend everyday and night with you like kerri....i still feel lonley.....
you cant explain the pain....when i first found out i didnt no how to take it....i was jst sat there wiv adam didnt say anythink and thn jst cried.....i didnt no if thts what i should be doing but i couldnt help my self......jst a long flow of tears....then i got home and saw kerri not talkin and just curled up on the sofa....i went over to her and cuddled her...i didnt no if it was right but it felt right!!! we all greeved and sobbed but then came the funeral the service was lovely apart from one thing...HER!!! everyone tht went to the funeral will no what sour faced 2 faced evil cow i am going on about.......she made kerri feel like she was never apart of his life....but she was his life...she gave him a family tht loved and cherished him...not liked they can give him......

But atleased you got laid to rest nicely.....jst remeber Everyone
You dont no what you have got untill its gone

i bet you tht rob didnt no how many people truely loved him untill naw he is watching over us thinkin what an complete idiot he is...we no tht you r sorri......welove you robert michael ayres and always will

R.I.P Babe
Sweet Dreams
Lov You Loads Lv Monkey toes lol:)
x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

We love and miss you

Rob i would love to go back to the night you died and just sit down with you for 5 minutes, Ive seen you in your silly moods before and seen you snap out of them as quickly as you went into them.
I got the feeling from talking to you in the past that you never truly believed that anyone could really love you, that somehow you werent worthy of anyones love...how very very wrong you were.
We know that you were haunted by things that had happened in your life and really needed to speak to somebody who could help, but even though Kerri tried her hardest you could be such a stubborn sod at times.

I will never ever believe that you really meant to take your own life, you were too full of happiness and planning for your future with Kerry and Lewis to have really wanted to leave. When we look around the house you three shared theres too much unfinished work, too many plans in the making for you to have meant to have gone.

It was a moment of madness that ended in tragedy.

We love you and miss you (especially your stupid grin).. but our lives were much better (if only for a short time) for knowing you.

We all love and miss you so much more than you would ever have believed.

Rest in peace my friend

Love you xxx Debbie

Debbie Mum of Kerri Atkins (Close Friend)
December 26, 2007

i am so sorry for your loss my son boyzie commited suicide on friday 13th of october robert took his life on what would of been boyzies 19th i know how you feel my heart goes out to you all what a terrible shame godbless you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

my heart goes out to all of roberts friends and family especially his mum, my daughter jennifer committed suicide, and i know the what ifs , if onlys and whys you will be asking yourself, i know the awful hurt and pain you will be experiencing and i wish you didnt have to , take care and god bless pauline x

Pauline Hart
December 25, 2007

words of comfort

To the family of Robert. The same thing happened to my nephew. He was a lovely boy had the world at his feet and lots of Girls ( every one of them wanted to be with him). But he just could not cope with the feeling of disspair. His mother, his sister his cousins and Aunties and all who loved him could not shake him out of it. He took his life 17 years ago at the tender age of 23. I am sorry i should be comforting you. I pray that the God of all comfort smiles down on you and give you hope. John 11: 11-44 is a scripture i cling to, may give you peace too. God bless.